Well, some news to start off the week. I got a job! It’s great that I got it but it’s not ideal and I’m going to keep looking for something I really want-some thing thats a challenge. That may sound ungrateful but this is a job that I did pretty much for 5 years thnn 3 years ago a much better opportunity came along that I took and loved but the recession took care of that…. In some ways I feel that this is a massive step backwards and that makes me want to run a mile from it but logically I know it’s a job, it’s money and it doesn’t need to be forever.
What upset me though is I rang a friend who I used to work with and now I’ll be working for a rival. Instead of being pleased she shot me down about it, told me that someone else had gone for it and the money was crap blah blah blah and by the end of the call I felt awful. Instead of being encouraging and pleased for me – I haven’t had a job for 5 months she was the total opposite. However, I do know I need to go into it with an open mind but I can’t help but feel a bit worried.
Anyway, onwards and upwards. It’s my birthday tomorrow (28)and I’ve been feeling very reflective. I need to make some changes, I’m stuck in a bit of a rut. Sometimes I feel very obliged to other people and I think sometimes that holds me back. In some ways I’m hoping that this job whatever happens will be some sort of a springboard for me to make a bit of a difference to my life.
We’ll see anyway.