Gimme a Break!


Not a lot of time at the moment to update- sorry! Basically my life has revolved around trying to get another job. Where I am hasn’t improved, its deteriorating rapidly infact. I’ve never (including summer jobs etc.) had such a bad job. Between being messed around with pay, being spoken to like I’m a piece of rubbish, chronic Health and Safety issues and not having enough staff to cover days off so being told I HAVE to work six days you can kind of get the picture. Honestly I’m 28 with a college education, not 15 working in a summer job!!

I’m trying to develop an attitude of letting it roll off me. As I’ve said it’s a means to an end and I WILL get something else. I went out last Friday night with the last company I worked for (who are closing) and the difference was unbelievable. I know I was spoiled working there and theres bound to be a difference but believe me, there’s no comparison! I know I’m overqualified for the job I’m in now and they’re using the current job situation to their advantage and taking the pee out of me! Part of me feels like walking but the other part of me wants to wait til I know I have something else to tell them where to stick it!

So for the last few weeks I’ve been applying for any suitable jobs, I’ve also been onto the recruitment agencies. I should have an interview coming up shortly for a much more suitable job. I’m sick off applying for things and not getting responses. I know I’m qualified for these positions, it’s just so frustrating!

I’m also really missing not getting to the gym as much and finding it really hard to stick to my diet due to stress and not having enough time. I really need to get myself sorted and rectify that as well for my own sake- no more excuses.

Keep your fingers crossed for me.


Letting off Steam


Apologies in advance of for this moany sounding post but I’m venting a bit.

So I started the new job on Tuesday, I went in with as much as possible a pretty open mind and….it sucks. The job itself is OK but to be very honest I’ve moved on from it, the real problem is the company itself, what I’ve seen so far I really don’t like. It seems to be a few people “in charge” who are on power trips. Yes, I know that happens in a lot of places but this is pathetic little things.

My main problem is money (which is pants btw). Basically I was offered a “managerial position” but I’ve since found out that the money isn’t any different to what the others are getting paid. The main benefit is that I must leave my phone on while I’m off and take responsibility for things that happen when I’m not there. Go me! Also I asked before I started did I have to work a week in advance and was told no. Only to be informed when payday rolled around that in fact I did. Add to this fact that they have sent me for “training” and I use that word loosely, in a town about an hours drive from where I live (even though they have a location in my town) so I’m paying for petrol and parking and getting no expenses. There’s also been a lot of pettiness that I’ve seen already in regards to holidays, days off, breaks etc. I do understand that it cant be a free for all but a bit of flexibility makes for a much better atmosphere (in my view)

When I worked in this job before for a different company customer service was the most important aspect, we did plenty of courses in this and its been an asset to me as I’ve moved into a different career. Here in this job that doesn’t seem to matter and I’ve been a bit shocked by their attitude to things . By nature I’m a pretty polite person, I say please and thank you and I always try and bring this into my work. I do know I was a bit spoilt by the last company I worked for, this crowd could learn a lot from them about creating a good working environment (damn recession).

Now, I’m fully aware that some of these may sound like small things and that I wasn’t that excited about the job in the first place but you know sometimes when you get a gut feeling about things and it seems that my one for this was pretty right. I know it’s a job and in these tough times I should be grateful but. life’s too short to just be grateful

Anyway the only positive is that its spurred me on to get my ass in gear and get something better. When I wasn’t working I was getting a bit complacent but now I’m determined to get something better. I’m trawling the recruitment sites, getting back onto the agencies and determined to get my life back on trace.

Wish me luck!

Things can only….

Yes, its cheesy, yes it’s old but at the moment it’s what I need to hear!



I was standing at the self service queue in Tesco this morning (behind someone who was taking forever to scan some grapes, but that’s another story). As I waited I overheard a young girl, aged between 8-10 from what I can see. She seemed to be talking to an older cousin or aunt and the gist of the conversation was that she was horrified that her companion had some Tesco Value products in her basket, in fact what she said exactly was “I hope no-one sees what’s in your basket, they’ll see the value stuff you have and throw coins at us cos they’ll think we’re poor”. The girls with her laughed and commented that what she was saying was a bit conceited to which the child replied “We never have stuff like that at home, we can afford better”

Now, part of me smiled but another part was a bit incredulous at what I was hearing. When I was that age I just knew that food came from the supermarket, the brand, be it Earl Grey or Lyons didn’t phase me. Just to prove her point the girl called her mother over who backed her up on only ever buying what they perceived to be quality goods. It honestly didn’t sound like a statement a child would come out with all by herself anyway so she was obviously repeating something she’s heard at home or from an adult.

Fair enough, each to their own. When I shop it tends to be a mix of brands from a mix of stores. I’m quite fussy about meat so that tends to come from the butchers. Veg a lot of the time comes from Lidl as I find that it’s a lot better quality, reasonably priced and lasts longer that what I’ve gotten elsewhere. I also buy cheese in Lidl as they have a better choice. I dont drink milk but at home we get the Tesco brand as they prefer it, likewise I don’t eat biscuits (at the moment) but we generally get the Tesco Rich Tea or Digestives, there isn’t a huge difference in taste and they are a lot better value.

People complain all the time about Rip Off Ireland, myself included but at least now there are options for those on less of a budget. I remember a few years ago in the town I live there were two supermarkets and both were owned by the same man- competition I think not. I’ve noticed with the recession that a lot more people are shopping in the likes of Lidl, Aldi etc as well because we’re more aware of what we’re spending these days.

When it comes down to it a lot (not all I know) of cheaper products are cheaper as they save on packing and advertising costs. As regards taste, that’s down to the individual. As far long as I’m concerned if I like it  I’ll buy it regardless of the brand and if someone looks in my basket and “throws me a coin because I’m poor” then I’ll add it to my holiday fund!!

Time For A Change


Well, some news to start off the week. I got a job! It’s great that I got it but it’s not ideal and  I’m going to keep looking for something I really want-some thing thats a challenge. That may sound ungrateful but this is a job that I did pretty much for 5 years thnn 3 years ago a much better opportunity came along that I took and loved  but the recession took care of that…. In some ways I feel that this is a massive step backwards and that makes me want to run a mile from it but logically I know it’s a job, it’s money and it doesn’t need to be forever.

What upset me though is I rang a friend who I used to work with and now I’ll be working for a rival. Instead of being pleased she shot me down about it, told me that someone else had gone for it and the money was crap blah blah blah and by the end of the call I felt awful. Instead of being encouraging and pleased for me – I haven’t had a job for 5 months she was the total opposite. However, I do know I need to go into it with an open mind but I can’t help but feel a bit worried.

Anyway, onwards and upwards. It’s my birthday tomorrow (28)and I’ve been feeling very reflective. I need to make some changes, I’m stuck in a bit of a rut. Sometimes I feel very obliged to other people and I think sometimes that holds me back. In some ways I’m hoping that this job whatever happens will be some sort of a springboard for me to make a bit of a difference to my life.

We’ll see anyway.

My Time


Over the last few months I’ve let things go with myself a little bit and I’m not feeling the best for it. I’ve always been a bit girlie- into make up etc but for some reason I just haven’t felt like it. Some of it’s been the weather- when its cold you’re so wrapped up that you think “Who’s going to see me?” . Some more of it has been to do with lack of confidence over the past couple of years and that’s what need to be changed

Things are changing though. My diet is going pretty well. There’s been a few slip ups so I’m re-reading the book and trying to make a few changes.  I’m losing weight, exercising taking vitamins and being pretty healthy.  I have more energy, I’m trying to make some future plans and I’m fed up of feeling blah about me! I’m planning to go shopping on Tuesday and pick up some new clothes and other bits, I’m getting my hair done on Friday, going to Take That on Saturday (yay) and I’m going to start looking after myself again, having pamper evenings starting tonight that I haven’t done for a while (facials, manicure, body scrubs etc) and just generally doing things for me. I’ve already started by having a clear out and I think that’s also helped to clear my mind out and focus me a bit.

I don’t think you need to wear make up all the time -if you’re just going to the shop for the paper who cares? This isn’t about vanity. I do think though that you have to work with what you have and make the best of it. I need to build up my confidence and be ready for what’s around the corner. I think its about time!

Driving Along


Slight drama this morning that I’ve been having a whinge about all day. Was coming home from the gym this morning, driving along when a JCB turned out onto a really narrow part. I had full right of way but he took up so much of the road I couldn’t move- I couldn’t reverse as there was a car right behind me and I couldn’t go forward. I beeped at him and waved frantically but he accidentally pressed a button in the cab and released the arm and scraped the side of my car. That sound of scraping metal is just, ugh

Anyway he hopped out, I was able to drive on and pull in. He admitted full liability, he asked me did I use K garage (which I do) and we exchanged numbers. The worst thing was I was standing at the side of the road in my gym clothes, greasy hair, still a bit red faced and a bit woofy while it seemed all my neighbours were going for a walk!

I took it to the garage (after a shower) and they told me it was going to be €350 to repair- I didn’t think it was that bad but the door needs to be sprayed and the bumper is damaged and as well as that it’s annoying me every time I look at it. I rang the guy and he was OK with it, he knows the garage anyway that’s all fine. My Dad however was humming and hawing over the cost, in the end I pointed out I wasn’t paying it and to be honest I think if this guy is so matey with the garage they’ll do it for a bit less.  It’s going to be fixed on Friday- it’s a pain but it could have been far worse I suppose.  It was just one of those things that was a pure accident, I’d never normally even be there at that time but I’d woken up early and went to the gym about an hour before I usually do.

That was all fine and really not that big a deal more and inconvenience, however I called to see my Aunt earlier and by the time I got there the rumour was that I’d been in a much more serious accident the – Gardaí were there blah blah blah WTF???? I hadn’t answered my mobile earlier and she was all in a flap. Why do people exaggerate so much, is there so little in their lives? Believe me, living round here sometimes is like living in a fishbowl. I don’t speak to some of the neighbours because of previous rubbernecking and gossiping incidents. If I want someone to know something I’ll tell them but people who stick their noses in without permission are liable to get them cut off!